Not Knowing Is Knowing
I remember there was a time when I wanted to know the whole Bible immediately as I started to read it. I wanted to be prepared so that when the time came for someone to question my skills, I'd be so filled with knowledge that it would blow them away.
I wanted to know everything from page to page, word for word and feel "enlightened" and filled. It was not too long after that when I realized my relationship with Christ is not the test, nor is it a way to show off my study skills.
There are many people in this world who know the bible and many stories or verses but do not have a relationship with God.
In church, we went over a few verses in the book of John chapter 9. The sermon as a whole was so good but I want to share one point. Quick background, there's a man who was blind. Jesus healed him of his blindness. Of course, there were unbelievers, especially because of how the scene went down. So, they asked this once-blind man, "where is Jesus now?!" The man simply said, "I don't know."
I just want to go over that part. He was once blind. Jesus healed him. He was now filled with faith and praise because he can now see, but when someone who did not believe asked him where the man who was responsible for all of this was currently at, he just said: "I don't know."
Like Pastor Fillmore at C3 Brooklyn church pointed out, we don't have to know everything. We set our minds on why, how come and oh no's! that we overlook the blessing that is right in front of us. We can shamelessly say WE DON'T KNOW.
Whether you're a new Christian, working at a job where you hold a lot of responsibility and have to maintain your level of credibility or maybe in the middle of a debate/conversation among friends, you need to ask yourself some things.
1. Are you driven and passionate about the topic and feeling as if you have to have the answers to everything because it's a prideful thing? Do you want to prove something to others that benefits you?
2. Is Jesus involved?
3. Are you caught up in the peripheral view and missing out on the central point?
Lately, in my personal life and in the life of a few around me, I have noticed that the question "why?" is constantly being thrown around. I love this point about being caught up in the peripheral view and missing out on the central point because, when we are so focused on proving that we know everything, even when we don't, we end up missing the point. We're too caught up on what doesn't matter! Sometimes, we just don't have to know why something happened, but rather the purpose of it happening. What can you learn from this? How does God want to use your situation for His glory? How can you share your testimony? There are so many answers that you can receive that will not force you or cause you to say that you don't know.
When you don't know the answer, it is okay to admit that. Not knowing can be in your favor in some areas. I am grateful to have younger siblings because they remind me of that innocence we have before growing up and being sucked into the world that includes pride and ego. As students, when we don't know something, we call onto the teacher. I believe that when you follow Jesus, you won't need to figure out the answers or be left in the dark.
Most of us are like this blind man. Except, not many of us have the faith that He had. Enough faith to not know where Jesus is or how any of our blessings happen, but the faith to be able to praise Him in the midst of it all.
We have to understand that all of our problems are not connected to an answer to your "Why," but that they are our way of drawing closer to Jesus and they exist so that the power and glory of God will be revealed.
We are like this once-blind man because of our pride. Pride blinds us. Because of our fears. Because of our doubts. Our questions. Our egos. Our personal fleshly desires. All of these things, our sins, and so much more, blind us! We have to find the way back to the purpose, not understanding and pressuring ourselves to understand why. '
Be led in your blindness. Be completely vulnerable in your faith and you will soon see the light; the purpose and the truth.