You are so close to where God wants you to be. Better yet, you are exactly where He wants and needs you to be. Some days you wake up and you wonder and pray whether you will be used by God. When, in reality, you have been used every day even when you least notice it. You have come such a long way and I notice that it is easy for you to forget how far you have come because, like many people, you get caught up in the future and what it holds.
I want you to always remember where you come from, what you have experienced, what you have learned, the people you have known and still know 'til this very day. Everything is all a part of God's plan for your life. Speaking of, just dwell on the days when you didn't completely consider God or His plan for your life. This has been your greatest achievement to date, surrendering and giving your life to God.
I am so proud of you. I know sometimes you are confused about life and your goals are often fed-up, but just take your time. There is no need for a race or to prove to anyone that you've accomplished things. Remember to always do for you what you feel is God's will on your life. You are special in so many ways. You are an amazing person and you will one day see that. Everyday is a opportunity to grow, to learn and explore. While you are still figuring out your purpose, become your purpose. Do something new every day. Learn something new. I know it all seems like a repetitive game, always telling yourself to do a certain thing and maybe eventually giving up, but that is okay. Don't apply too much pressure to yourself. In a few years, you will look back, again, and truly appreciate everything. The procrastination, the delays, the drive, the determination. Everything.
I Love You so much and I only want the best for you.