The Best You (Part 1 of 2)
Let me just start this by saying, MAN ! I am on fire for Jesus right now. I am sitting at my work desk, feeding myself with the word of God and I feel a twitch in my shoulder, my right leg anxiously shaking, I could be honest and say that my breathing pattern is a little questionable, but just overall full of joy. I have been fed! Okay, Okay… Let's get started.
About two months ago, I decided to start fresh and read the bible chronologically. I'll be honest, I am in 2 Samuel and I found myself fading away. I will blame it on my school semester starting and trying to gather my thoughts, the lack of sleep I have been getting and the unnecessary commute that I have to do…but, those would all be excuses. So this week has been my fault that I have slacked off. I set a goal to read my bible everyday, I started, but I did not finish.
We are going to call this : Do You Have Trouble Finishing The Projects You Start?
As I am sitting here, fumbling around with my phone and my tablet, I look to my left and there is my bible. Staring right up at me. I initially started to make an excuse as to why I shouldn't read right now, but I gave in and picked it up. I turned to 2 Samuel and barely looked at the words. I couldn't begin to read. I felt as though this book was not for me, not Today at least. It's done its justice several times. Something triggered me to open up the book of Haggai. Honestly, I've never opened this book before. To be clear, I am still fairly new to the bible-reading squad. Just to think, two years ago I would bash this book stating that it's just a "man-made book" and I would not read it. Credit to God because He is good.
The first thing that I see as I open the book, "Trouble finishing the projects you start?"
What? I was like, Lord't! You know me! You're doing this conspiracy thing again aren't you, God? You know I have a tendency to start something and never-ever-ever- finish it!
He was like, Just Read.
It automatically made me anxious to find out what this story was about.
I'll be honest, reading the bible isn't always easy. There are parables that are always so hard to understand, stories that are just filled with killings and I just sit there like what, God, what? But, it all has a purpose.
The story starts off in what almost seems like an attack..Here's some background and pointers that did it for me:
Side note: Read the book of Haggai.. It's literally two pages long.
Why are you living in luxurious houses while my house lies in ruins?( Haggai 1:4)
You have planted much but harvest little.( Haggai 1:6)
Now go up into the hills, bring down timber, and rebuild my house. Then I will take pleasure in it and be honored."( Haggai 1:8)
God wants you to rebuild HIS house. What is His house? His house is your body; the temple. Your heart. Your mind. Your being. Your beliefs. Your faith. (His house is also referred to as the church, but while I was reading this, I felt that it needed to be applied to me as an individual)
He says that you plant so much but harvest little. How often, if you're like me, do you start something and never finish. Now, I know it's not always because of laziness. It can be discouragement in one self, not fully believing in what you OR God is capable of accomplishing. You're not satisfied because you don't have 100% trust in God or his plan. Many times we will plant a goal, we give up too quick because we don't have the patience to wait on God. So, we come out thinking that we are losers.
I find myself hoping for success, for riches and for a better life to come, yet I can not even obey God and maintain His temple; His house. God is not going to allow anything to harvest if I am not investing the proper seeds or the suitable time needed for it to grow. You can not expect to be blessed when His house, Your Heart, is ruined. Rebuild yourself.
He says " I have called a drought on your fields and hills—(….)---a drought to starve you and your livestock and ruin everything you have worked so hard to get." OUCH
So, you mean to tell me that God is going to pull everything from me? He is going to take everything away that I worked so hard for!?
"Droughts on your fields"—how many times have you experienced that drought ?
Whether it be depression, loneliness, discouragement, failure, doubt, anxiety and so much more.
Those moments were the moments when God has placed a drought on YOUR life. A drought to remove you of all of your fleshly desire that you worked on that had nothing to do with what God wants for you. You worked hard on things without consulting Him.
Yet, he follows it up by saying "I am with you!" After warning you that He was going to ruin everything that you worked for, God says "I am with you!" How about that? Imagine yourself living with a spouse, they burn down your entire house with all of your belongings, your life is basically in that home, and they stand outside as you both look on watching the house burn down. You're crying, screaming, calling him all sorts of names. However, he's standing there as calm as day saying "I am with you!" WHAT! Some of you would look at him as if he had fifty heads, like—YOU did this. Well, that's God. Whatever was inside of that home, inside of His house, was no good for you. It was toxic. It needed to be ruined. Yet, He will still stand by our side. But, we still find that hard to understand, don't we ?
Part 2: To Be Continued...